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Because here’s the variable I failed to calculate: loneliness is not simply the absence of people. Loneliness is the awareness of that absence when you suddenly desire company for reasons you cannot quantify. I did not want to talk about comic books or football. I wanted someone to observe me eating the peanut. To acknowledge the system I had created. Without an audience, my experiment was merely sad. young sheldon s06e05 satrip
For the record, I was right. About the peanut, about the train seating algorithm, and about the futility of unsupervised social gatherings. However, being right offered no tactical advantage. In fact, it yielded the opposite: isolation. End log
[Click. Recording ends.]
[Long pause. Then, quietly:] I miss Dr. Sturgis. I did not want to talk about comic books or football
Dad tried to help. He’s been making an effort since the coaching incident. He told me, “Sheldon, you can’t logic your way into friendship.” Which is absurd, because friendship is simply repeated positive interactions over time — that’s a formula. But when I pointed this out, he sighed and said, “You’re missing the point.”
You would think this would please me. It did not.